The Dr. Will See You Now...

Excuse me, is there a Mr. J Reed
Can you come back into the exam room, please?
We understand that you've spent a long time waitin'
But the Dr. is excited, because you're her favorite patient

Hello Mr. Reed, I am Dr. Lanier
And I'm really sad to hear that a sickness has appeared
Let me take your temperature, so we can make it clear
That everthing's okay, and it's not something severe

Hmm...looks like your chart say's...That you're heartless
But looking at you now, it seems that's far fetched
I'll even go so far to suggest...
That like a [charlie horse] you're probably a good [catch]

And that's a safer bet than playing roulette in Vegas
I see your scars are healing, so we don't have to tape this
I'll just let my hands replace the gauze placement
And I'm sure those aren't tears, just eye irritation

I have just what you need to cure your ills
You'll be well rested after I give you this "sleeping pill"
My request to be your primary care physician is for real
So if you just pay the co-pay I won't send a bill

See Me Now

Hold the can, I'm about to take the top off
The doors closed but I'm about to pop the locks off
Thank you Mr. West, this beat'll knock your socks off
They throwin' rocks, but I'm about to get my rocks off

I went from chicks being disgusted by my presence
To them sending me presents with no type of expectance
Childhood embarassing, I guess I learned a lesson
I'll tell you who I am, so you don't have to get to guessin'

You wanna know if I'm affected by the break up
But you can ask MAC about my mental makeup
You on some double D's, but I just want some A-cups
'Cause my eyes are mesmerized by a big butt

Plus My teacher always said I won't succeed
But it's solely 'cause of her that I'm on my 3rd degree
Yes below freezing, nobody cold as me
I'm a genius, how could you disagree

Depends on your shape baby if you wanna mate
And if you wanna procreate I need your credit ratin'
Since I'm single now, I guessI got a clean slate and
A lot of fish in the sea you better take the bate

I Love You Ladies

Lovely ladies, I love you ladies
I had to write this song to let you know that I ain't crazy
Asked you to Check the yes or no but you put maybe
Seeming indecisive in decisions as of lately

Every lady that I'm with, I spoil
Get you of this continent, let you know I adore you
We can spin around the globe pick a shore boo
Always keep it original, So that I never bore you
And you can tell me everything you looking forward to
You never judge me and that's why I will court you
You're my baby, so I will not abort you
And J's an educator, look at all that I have taught you

On the surface, I know my edges rough
But it's worth the effort to navigate all of that stuff
Extremist, if I stop than it's abrupt
But our petty arguments never seem as they're enough

On my level every aspect, with cash back
You never worry bout my past because you're past that
And when life is up and down like the Nasdaq
You're right beside me sayin' that we'll get past that

When my earthquakes shake you to the core
And the after shocks put you on the floor
You never hesitate in asking me for more
You're screaming orgasms are part of the allure

I love to make you smile
I know you're not a child
But I will put you on my knee every once in awhile
Unlike another, is something that describes your style
I know those bones up in my closet make a bigger pile
But girl I am fiendin' for your love because it's been a while
Your rivers flow, north to south just like the Nile
And for that lovin' I will walk 100,000 miles
So ask your daddy if he can walk you up and down the aisle

Keep Dreamin'

Enter me, oh so casually
Must remain calm, was always my belief
My demeanor doesn't mean you any harm
I'll surrender what I gotta, so I'll show you all my palms
Showed you all my poems, just to get you all involved
You're all neanderthal, and J Reed is so evolved

Believe you all can solve, the problems that I have
I showed you all my past, but all you did was laugh

And you wonder why I'm crass?
Will the inspiration last, is the question you should ask?
Try to be transparent, but still I wear a mask.
The Doctorates degree, means I'm ahead of class

I'm ahead of schedule, the mile markers passed.
I need to slow it down, but I'm having a blast.
Just ask my stock broker, you coming up in last.
A couple stocks and bonds, why you still counting cash...

Man you gotta grow up
You still drinkin' juice out the lil sippie cups
Still rockin' pacifiers, nigga change your diapers
I do this for the kids who only look up to the lifers

To show them it's another route that they can aspire
My rhymes are on fire, this verse I will retire
...If you don't like my art then i'll find a another buyer

DC's Finest

Man this beat got me afflicted
They say these last few rhymes are sounding like I'm on a mission
...So please watch and listen
It's the same old show, but I did my own rendition

Brakes lights on the highway
I see it every friday
I had to do this my way
...Now, repeat the words that I say

Dad got it on the corner
But he didn't want a clone
He made sure that I went farther
...So I guess he was a martyr
Left religion of the streets
So I could live life proper

Not a product of environment
...Now I'm saving for retirement
Let these beats be my conduit
The vocab is impeccable, literacy is fluent
I do this all for fun
But my rhymes they are amused with
*Break*

Sorry Mama, gotta live like thee Obama's
If you can't keep up then just stay here at the bottom
I'll go ahead and another chick will follow
Progress is my motto so get used to my brovado
Music in my brain my mental notes staccato
Only shots of Absolute so I won't mention Moscato
If I'm feeling pain, then I swallow the whole bottle

I got my eyes on the limelight
Seen what it's done so I got my mind right
So all you rhymers better rhyme right
Because I'm coming when the time's right
And Christian Bale said that I'll see alot of Dark Knights
So for this livin' you're gonna pay a large price
But victory is in my eyesight
So whether arms length or arms height
It's 15 rounds so know it's gonna be a long fight

Devil In A New Dress Freestyle

Gather 'round all my haters and my critics
Give the thumbs down on my life, but I still gotta live it
I'm tired of beggin' niggas for forgiveness
So I had to write this rhyme to tell you niggas mind your business
Used to post and pivot but a nigga had to give it
So now I hog the ball, 'cause I'm scorin' and I'm winnin'

Damn can you believe it, J Reed done got conceited?
You all should understand, 'cause my whole life I was defeated
Thanks for the support, the confidence was needed
You never would've known that my child hood was meager
Act like you don't know, but I'll make you a believer
Tryna get her in the sack, but she say she wide receiver

Ok girl, Let J Reed you your rights
Remain silent, or I don't need you tonight
I do a couple things that I don't need you to like
'Cause other girls love it, you can leave if you like
And I know that you're bright, so it's needless to fight
Plus the diamonds between your thighs only gleem in the light

I ain't a star yet, the black Josh Hartnett
A lot of different looks but I didn't get the part yet
So I just smile, though the frustration's harnessed
Always a setback when you make a lil progress
But I'm only focused on the victory I'm promised
That's not something that you can attribute to a novice

Conflicting lessons that I've learned got me torn
But I'm coming in first like the day I was born
One Two, Oh One, One Nine, Eight Three
Y'all say it's all love but it seems that you hate me
Could it be the reason that your girl wants to date me
An Animaniac I'm tryna take over nation

Stay in the sky but my altitude can plummet
So these shots of Absolute are for my pain so i can numb it
And women usually give it when you act like you don't want it
Give it then don't have to worry 'cause I'm on it like a hornet
In the middle of the summer like he smells the honey pourin'
They sleepin' on my freakin', I'm ignorin' all their snorin'

I heckle all my skeptics, so a Snorlax's what I call 'em
Like a...Pokemon, 'cause i'm gonna poke you long
Rembrant with the stroke, picture perfect post it love
And you can find me at the bar posted up
Got Damn I love my life, so I gotta toast it up

A lil heartbroken, but I gotta toast to love

So please raise your cup, and homey lace 'em up

Or just get off the plane if the turbulence is rough...

The Introduction

Excuse me Miss...
And I call you Miss because there's no way
that I could've known your name
But honestly Miss seems to fit
'Cause I would hate to miss
the chance to make your acquaintance
And that look on your face
lets me know that you've been gettin' this all day
But just know that this isn't the same
Those other dudes are lame with their lies
and I'm just not that kind of guy
So I tell you that since beauty is relative
It's more than that no bull *expletive*
I've been watching those intangibles
and you appear to be worth more than a random screw
I'm enamored by you...
and you can tell by all of my attention you've subdued
The attitude is undue
I didn't say "A girl" or any of those things that you're used to
The words I speak to you are original
So it's a shame that I must bare the blame of your disdain...
For the game of those others
Who haven't discovered
The way or style to approach a lady of your caliber
Well I'll say "so long" for now
I'm just glad that I could make you smile

Bow My Head

Dear Lord...
I'm so selfish and self-absorbed
But when did all this happen.
It's like one day I was nappin'
Then woke up a different person
It's like the gift and the curse again

Got just what I was askin'
And shit I'm havin' a blast
But when each second is passin' quick
Can't get a good grasp on shit

Try to pretend I'm not
Look at all these friends I've got
But I stay in a zone
So sometimes I feel I'm alone

And yes I'm blown
But by my face you'd never know
I do a good job to hide
So don't seek 'cause I don't confide

Mental Manipulation

Fuck the formalities
'cause girl I'm tryna lick every inch of your existence
Just sit back and listen 'cause I don't need your assistance

I'm straight with making it flow in case you ain't know
Think back to the pink where I blow

Well now I'm tryna lick circles around your love
like I'm racing for the Sprint Cup

I've been up...and if you tryna get it down
You can just meet me somewhere near the 6th round
I won't even pull your panties down
You can be the person, name the place, and I'll give you that thang like a noun
But hold on to that for now

See, my track record is proven
So ask the girls that 'Whip Their Hair Back And Forth'
about the beds that I be movin'
It's rare that I be losin'

I'm so confident sexually
That if a chick say my dick ain't the shit
I don't even take it disrespectfully

Besides, I got many chicks that have been baptized
That can definitely testify

So just rest your eyes...please
'cause imma put you to bed
But no J Holiday...I'm J Reed
And I'm an exhibitionist, so if you need a sneak peek
Just type in "best sex ever", and the first google site is me
Don't be fooled by my conceit

They say my words were cliche' after the 'Mind Games'
So although I thought 'Back In Your Mind' was great
Some felt my words weren't enough to stimulate

But they can't put stipulations on this 'Mental Manipulation'
So all of my agitation
Will be taken out on this back breakin' love makin'
If you're patient...legs shakin'

And the view of me and you
Are what you have to look forward to

Well now I must bring this to a close
Just count this as another to go in my 'Mental' portfolio

Whip My Hair Freestyle

I'm on some silly shit
Tell me if you're feeling it
Just got your hair done?
Well baby girl get to whippin' it

Pardon me Willow, but imma have to ticket this
You folks unemployed and J Reed about his businesses
My drive is limitless
Girl I'm like a chauffeur
I'm on my Nu Bucks/New Bucks
And these other dudes are loafers
Put a penny in 'em
What's the issue with 'em
They're all walkin' 'round the city saggin' skinny denim
So I can not befriend them
Me I just school a little
And they get quiter than church mice, Stuart Little
But I do not belittle
I'm on the up and up
I'm over heads like flight attendants puttin' luggage up

And I don't care, I'm in the air back in forth
clear ports when I fly, we in the air back in forth
She want me in them thighs, I'm in them legs back and forth
I'm a beast in the sheets, I move the bed back and forth
And they don't get enough of me, they move their head back and forth
So you ain't gotta like the beat, just whip your head back and forth

Dear Summer Freestyle

I was born in the sun, on the doorsteps of winter
Leaves still falling, the day after November
My childhood, I'd rather not remember
Or better yet I'll call it a time to forget

My time to reflect hasn't come as of yet
The snakes still slither, a nigga still bitter
But I've become better and no matter the weather
My forecast is clear my mind's back in gear

The sounds you can hear of a child who's in fear
Who can't face the day, but can't run away
I came just to say that I'm must make a way
And my time is now, so here's 'Seven Pounds'

Not even 'Will Smith' could fix what I've dealt with
No scales, two court orders with no bail
I'm not frail, jah stocky nigga
Once humble, but now I'm a cocky nigga

I rhyme for serenity, the cleanse of my soul
You rhymin' for enemies and Benz's to hold
It's so old, and my temperature's grown cold
No lie, I'll 'Godfather' you 'wise guys'

I'm not from Bedstuy and that's no disrespect
The District's at bat, and I'm the next one on deck
And if not, this right here is for the streets
I've 'Exhaled', now you can 'Wait' on the beat

Rude Boy Freestyle

Come here rude boy, boy can you get it up?

Girl, I be up all night like the temperature...

In the summer time

Tryna get it in

Sippin' Mai Tai's down in the caribbean

I'm a 'rude boy'

but I'm 'nice' though

And we finish last, I'll be down when your eyes close

If you're thighs closed

You better open up

I'm might kiss it if you tell me that you're close enough

Girl I'm boastin' a *clears throat* "big ego"

And ain't no tellin' just how deep he'll go

You'll be twitchin'

When I come around

I got it up, now let's see if you can get it down

Rewind

I"m tryin' not to let my mind rewind
Back to the past where I tried to pass

But alas, I'm in full reminisce
And these thoughts, though I regret to admit, bring me feelings of bliss
Thoughts of the corner of your mouth where I would kiss
And the random acts of kindness that I dearly miss
Instead of my pain it was you that I chose to dismiss
Which in some ways makes me feel like I have to slit my wrist (just kidding lol)

All I see is me and you taking trips to DQ
You telling me that this "oreo crack" was fitna make you fat
And the irony in that, was that you never gave up that chance to indulge in a Oreo Blast
This nostalgic glimpse into the past has rain in my forecast

And I'm aware that you may not care because the way I handled things was pure crass

So as sure as...I write these words, I do so knowing that they'll go unheard

And I know it's absurd, but I'll toss these words in the sky
Hoping that your soul will fly to them in your dreams at night
I know that you have every reason to hate me

So I say these...things with as much apprehension as I can bring
You asked me was this just a fling
I must admit that it that it hurt for you to demean
As if I only treated you like a thing

But I mean...what did I expect when it was you that I chose to reject?
Which makes me feel stupid because you were a wife prospect

I've chose to neglect these feelings for too long
And I know that's wrong
So I chose to write this poem/song

I know that we can never belong again
I just hope that you can rewind with me on the time that was spent

Untitled

It seems that every since I began running I can't stop
I try and put the brakes on, but the loud squealing keeps my wheeling

And what's around the corner continues to chase
along with the stuff that crashes from my past

I tell my self to laugh
but the smile and teeth you see
Are merely a facade for what's beneath

Some say that they can see past it
And to just get past it
But the last hit was a classic

I thought I did a good job to mask it
But my attempts (I guess) are more unremarkable than fantastic
I believed that the change in me was evident
But apparently people want my past to be present

I'll just take it as a blessin' that the change isn't easy to see
But know (in the future) you may mistake me for someone who looks like me
I guess it's time for me to stop running and face the consequence of what I used to be
No underestimating the difficulty because this is all new to me

But I'm content with the path I'm on
And if you can't tread with me then I have to say so long

You can only infer who I am as a person
These poems are like a Maybach with the drawn open curtains
So you can see inside of my pain and my hurtin'
And you can guess who I am but make sure that you're certain

A Man Apart

Hey beautiful...I just wanted you to know...

That you're the finest thing that I've seen from this view before

I don't even want nothing from you

I can settle for being just an ear you can run to...

When things get difficult

And situations get pivotal

I can offer words from the word that are spiritual

I would love to date you but if you aren't ready

I can still stick around, girl for real I'll be down

But I can see the deal you only deal with them clowns

So I'm guessing it's time for me to morph now

.........................................................................................................

A girl, damn your ass looking phat

So come talk to me 'cause I'm tryin' to attract...

Attention and them digits, don't be blind to the fact

That I only want them panties, 'cause the way you're dressed is scantily...

Clad and you're bad but I'm blount like a 'J'

And it's sad but you take anything that I say

If you don't take a stand then that means it's okay

And you wonder why after we're done I'm away

I fly after I'm in and out of them thighs

But if you want it again I'll be happy to oblige

If you want me to stay and talk then I gotta go, goodbye

Since I don't give a shit about you, I don't feel the need to lie

Welcome Your Professor

Please sit still while I teach you this lesson that I'm tryna bless you wit

I usually make people pay, but your ignorance has earned you a scholarship

My knowledge set is so polished that Pledge wants to model it

It's just the genius in these genes so I screen the terms of the mean that go unlearned

So in turn I need you in this chair and don't squirm

Sit still like it's a perm in your hair and you don't want to get burned

Like the way I use these words?

Well my diction is indicative of my vision

And you can add e'ry/ary to both if it's missin'

You're pissin' away you life without a mission

So I'll assume permission to be placed in a position...

To teach you the ways of the world

As if you're my little boys and girls

But I ain't daddy, I'm a little lesser

So you can just welcome me as your professor

First I'd like to say that I think it's Insane how yall think it's cute to make it rain

Please explain?

I pick up those dollars and invest in the stock market

So that money you threw up, I used to make a profit

Second, you guys boast about clothes of a person you don't know

Until you go broke

And I don't know when this became appealing,

but while you go broke these people are making millions

Third, you would rather you voice go unheard...

Then to show up at the polls and play a role...

Which has America on the verge of taking another blow

Now, it seems that you being a Benz roller

is more important than becoming a homeowner

Ready to finance some suicide doors

rather than a 30 year mortagage

Like I said I ain't tryna be daddy

I am just a professor

And my words were for you reflect and are not meant to pester

But I'm guessin' that it'll allow feelings of discontent to fester

So I'll just end my rant and know my role as the lesser

The Poem About Everything/Nothing

I'm tryna let the beat build
but as long as my feet are still
on solid ground
imma hold it down

I've been searching for the seeds

of a leaf that will strengthen my belief...
In the truth but somehow it's aloof...
or at bay, so what more can I say?

I'll just trace the opposite of fallacy
Hoping that it can carry me somewhere near infinity...
Or beyond in 'Lightyears', cause the 'Buzz' is right here
And I'm patiently waitin' on my intoxication

But sadly today I'm sober
And the more the day goes by I'm gettin' closer...
To snapping...

But watch how I 'Lean and Rock' wit it
'Cause as soon as the clock hits 6
I'm pulling down my landing gears
And preparing for the landing strip

If my altitude drops any lower
Then my attitude will grow colder

And you won't be able to recognize
Even without a disguise

I abide by the laws that I'm told
because the flaws that I hold

Are scrutinized more than the truth that I've sold

So if you can only purchase the negativity
Then I need for you to get away from me

Because more people are prone to criticize, than pray for me

I'm all about progression

And in the this recession

Any opposition gets eaten, no question

So as you look down your nose just notice,

that you're staring down the barrell of my AK
And the bullets that hit you are really the spit from the words that I spray

And you know what they say
That when your finger is pointed,

You have 3 pointed back your way

And I can go all day in hopes that you've heard somethin'

But I know that everything I've said probably meant nothin'

Back In Your Mind

Last time I left a few holes in your mind

But this time that vagina's mine

I took this time away from my usual grind to get back into your mental

And I'm sure if we put our heads together we can find something to get into

You said you were tired of the 'Mind Games'
So all of my wordplay will be dedicated to making your legs shake

If your body quakes with each verse, don't curse these words as perverse

Just take it as me tryna tsunami your body

Not braggin' on myself, but I named my penis Katrina

And no disrespect to the Gulf region

But I'm gonna Category 5 in them thighs...

Until I breach them levees and you're flood waters are just as high

Last time I was gentle in my approach

And as much as I hate to boast, I was the inspiration for your flow

And my inspiration for this flow is visions of me taking off your clothes

And this time it'll be an altoid (not a tic-tac) at the pink, where I blow

You see, it's rare that I disappoint when I'm in there

So you don't have to worry about any failed experience

'cause girl I take this serious

My spontaneity is a mystery

So go read 'Mind Games' if you need a lesson in history

Last time I told you my head game was vicious

But I left it as food for thought, for you to do the dishes

So rather than say, "Girl I'm 'bout my business"

I'll detail so you don't have to ask, "How good is it?"

For the first few minutes I treat your clitoris as if it's off limits

And it'll bring tears to your eyes when I lick and bite, up and down your inner thigh

All of this before I get the ice cubes and do what I do

And if you'll be sure to trim her, I'll be downtown all day like the Verizon Center

You see, I'm tryna put my signature on your inner...

Walls, so that if you ever have a thought, I'll be the cause

My sex game deserves a round of applause

And if you don't distract, you can 'Gimme The Light' and I'll 'Make It Clap'

I am the leader of this poetry slam

But if you're willing to do your thing on the mic, this session can go all night

And If you're not, then girl it's fine

I'm just glad to see that I'm 'Back In Your Mind'

Lyrical Exercise #2

Man y’all can keep up
You 87 octane, and me I’m the ether, that’s coming through your speakers
Take them boys to Shell just to get them out their shell
Ninja Turtle Raphael, Yeah them boys seeing red
And me I’m getting head on a boat, need to float
Yeah I’m cold need a cloak
See I’m something like a bloke, minus the accent
Tryna be Jordan but it seems that I’m Paxson
So imma play my role, until I emerge
Gotta be patient but I feel I’m on the verge
And I know you feel the surge
My flow is electric
So all you wack bammas need to go and find an exit
Hell yeah I’m flexin, had to get pass the stressin
‘cause I don’t need to worry if the Lord said I’m destined
And life is a blessin, but the ex- makes me nervous
No I ain’t talking drugs I’m talking the ex-girlfriend
See she’s a woman scorned, so that has me torn
But I’m comin in first like the day I was born
One Two, Oh One, One Nine, Eight Three
You say it’s all love but I can see that you hate me
You ain’t gotta act ‘cause your actions are blatant
Like an animaniac I’m tryna take over Nation

Ms. Success

Hello Ms. Success.

I know that you think success is measure by the new house that you just bought
Those new clothes that you caught
Away from the sale rack
And I can tell that
Having a man isn't in your immediate plan

You see, In your quest to climb that corporate ladder
You strike out every batter
Who makes an approach to your plate
And even if they do get a hit,
they come up lame on their way to first base

I can't even begin to tell you how the men who catch a glimpse of your stride,
run and hide in terror
But you would rather have that if they don't have it together,
and even if they do you only love them for a few
Maybe a little longer depending on how well he put it on ya

Ms. Success, the more you succeed the more you stress
You see, those things you pretend not to care for
Are on your mind constantly
Therefore, you secretly envy those friends
With their children and men
Who haven't met what your definition of success is

Ms. Success, you don't mess with dudes that kiss and tell
And those dudes on them wishing wells
If they lack ambition, you wish them well
Then consider it a mission failed

That degree in dentistry wasn't enough to scoop a dude in the ministry
You pray to the Holy Trinity for a man that is in to Thee
Then get mad at G.O.D. when you get a wolf dressed in sheep's...
Clothing, as if every word out of his mouth wasn't exposing...
His true colors, or those flaws you decided to ignore

See Ms. Success, that biological clock is ticking
So that thing with ole boy that ain't clicking
You decided to ignore for a minute
Then all that lovin' has placed a bun in your oven
Now you're thrity somethin' and a baby mother

Now, a single mom you are Ms. Success
And internally you send out calls of distress
While exuding an attitude of "No sweat"

Ms. Succes, all you ever wanted was to have it all
And the route you chose may have been your down fall
But who ever said you were down?
See, your smile is your frown
So you know how to put on the mask when they come around

Ms. Success, I wish you the best in your prosperous endeavors
So know that all of the storms that you weather,
only come to make you better
And only measure yourself by your definition of success
Then sooner or later he will realize that you are/r between the "M." and the "S."

Lyrical Exercise #1

Pardon this poem but I'm still like a noam

I'm still in the zone, and you copy like a clone

Quiet when I'm blown, but I'm vocal when I'm blown

If you don't understand then apparently you're dumb

I'm just having fun, when I puntuate the pun

And you ain't making sense like machines on the bus

Polite when I bus, but I'm steppin' in front

'Cause I'm tryna get my slice like the side of the blunt

Tryna get the green but I don't want no seeds

So after you hit me then you better be bleeding

If not I'm seething, If not we grieving

'Cause Pastor said don't you abort for no reason

I'm up for the challenge, but must find my balance

So I'll call PNC, and right after my stylist

Go get fly, jounts in the pocket

sharp as a tack when I'm on the red carpet

A Response to Love Due

It's been a few days since that message from Love

The balance is what I'm now thinking of

I guess none of my payments were received

Plus when the payments got rough I sent my forebearance I do believe

But Love is just like the government

You don't pay up, they coming to get their shit

I just hope there is enough left in my account

Because we all know Love will wipe you out

So I will be setting up my payment plan

To try and pay Love back again

But I need for Love to understand

That she isn't the only bill on my payment plan

'Cause Love can be so selfish though

She doesn't care about the other checks you wrote

As long as she is paid on time

To help her reach her bottom line

So I'll ask Love to work with me

And to stop charging all those damn extra fees

Some people let Love attack their heart and send them to Heaven

But before I let Love take me under, I'll file chapter eleven

Everybody's Gangsta

At a young age I realized that the block wasn't for me

Don't get me wrong, my upbringing was drenched in poverty

More oodles of noodles and syrup sandwiches than any dude you see

But thoughts of the fast life I knew I had to concede

Not because it wasn't glamorous and attractive to me

More because it was scandalous and retractive to me

In a world where it seems like "Gangsta" is the thing to be

It's seems uncouth would be the word you'd use to describe me

But I'm ok with it, 'cause I know it sets me apart

And I know my personality will pierce you memory like a dart

Seems like pretending is in and has become a new art

But being "Gangsta's" a facade, not who you are in your heart

I know that the road that I'm on is the one less traveled

full of freshness and newness not worn with dirt and gravel

So if Gangsta's the path you choose it'll be an uphill battle

'Cause at some point you're waiting for your life to unravel

But if Gangsta's what you need to help your self esteem

Then please kill yourself, 'cause that excuse is stupid to me

Just be yourself, 'cause I truly believe

That none of these guys are ever as Gangsta as they seem

Mind Games

Staring across the room at your silhouette
has me feeling so fresh...and grown
But I'm alone in the feeling of wanting to go home
Will I leave? Hell no!
I've been picturing this moment for sometime
And I'd be a damn fool to leave you here behind
So the undressing you with my mind, has climbed down my spine
and over to the shoulders, I'm growing bolder
But not in Colorado, plus this moscato has my mental notes so staccato
Shirt and pants gone, a trance on
my mind's in the sublime, I know this is a crime
But got damnit I'll do the time
Panties now removed, I step back to enjoy you
And the moment, cause the closer I get to tip off
I lift off another article of clothing
Lips connect with ankle and not toes
because we all know how that goes
As my lips rise up the leg, blood leaves from my head
And the ears have gone deaf to what ever's said
As I reach your apex you tell me to go on but my retreat is payback
I step back with a wink after I blow where it's pink
I won't take a lick yet, must go get a tick tack
Cause the cool sensation is bound to send vibrations
All through your area, damn I'm bout to tear it up
The rest is for you to envision, cause my head game is vicious
But my mind games are different

...Is Hard To Find

I'm sure that if you studied the snapshot of your life you'd see
that the common link between you and happiness is me

Now, that may seem like the words of a man that walks that fine line between confidence and conceit
But you gotta admit, regardless of my demeanor, I'm the closest thing you've seen to complete

Not to say that I'm perfect, 'cause we both no that's not the truth
But I can give you the rundown if you really need some proof

When your luck had run out, and you were out and about
I set you up nice, and kept you on route

When you were searching for a place to let your head rest
I bent over backwards and got you the best (that I could afford that is)

And when that became too much to afford
I tightened my belt and left you assured

That no matter the circumstance I would have your back
And even with that much I still felt attacked

Did everything under the sun to make you feel secure
But no matter how much, you still needed more

Would take you on trips to settle your stress
But proved to add to your constant unrest

Just wish you could see the picture in whole
Then I wouldn't have to constantly console

I guess that's why some say "A Good Man's Hard To Find"
'Cause not matter much he does or how hard he grinds

You're always left with doubts in the back of your mind

Haters Back Of Hiatus

Uh Oh! It appears that I'm the object of ridicule again

Let's see, where should I begin?

Oh! First Up, they ask"why does he write a blog"

about different issues he wants to solve

But why you guys are stuck in the same mind frame

I'm out here trying to evolve

Then I hear "so you want to be a rapper?"

"Jarrett, please don't quit your day job"

"Plus, what would you rap about. You never sold drugs!"

"You never stood on a block and you were never a thug!"

LOL Is that the criteria now-a-days?

I scofe at what you clowns say

Next comes the size of the words I use

Go back to my old vocabulary? I must refuse

They want me to dumb down my verbiage

The implication of such is a bit discourteous

I have a better idea for you guys though

In plain terms, "Get on my level hoe!"

Now they're like, "How soft is he?"

"This dude is writing poetry?"

To that I think I have to say

I couldn't have it any other way

So hate on me haters

It only puts me in the zone

I need inspiration to come off the dome

and your hate alone inspired this poem

Thank You *wink*

Burnt Images

Hearing things you would rather not can damage the spirit a lil bit

But the problem is when what you hear is doomed to stay on the brain

And all the pain is shown past the laughter 'cause once that's gone

You belong to the frown of the scenes that you wished you hadn't seen

I mean, true enough my words probably hurt

But I can only feel the pain pulsing thru my veins

It's a shame how we as humans practice hypocrisy

Then try and study the philosophy like we're Socrates

Only to be told that the hurt we're feeling isn't warranted

And in turn that only makes us feel as if it's poured on thick

Just to make it hurt a lil bit, more

And ain't no telling what's in store, Just know that I'm back for more

So curse these burnt images, for I fear that they will never end

And if that's my fate, I take solace in the fact that I made this plate

Or did I? 'Cause I'm a lil shook up about somethings I couldn't have cooked up

Well alas, those images are of the past, and I'm here to represent your present

And undoubtedly your future, So I'll suture up this hurt with my words

And smile past the pain, because although tears fall like rain

The sun will shine again.

Love Repossessed

*knock knock*

Hello?...

Hello, I am here for Love's repossession

Before I take Love back, I have but one burning question

Did you really think you'd be able to keep Love forever? Have you not heard the news? We are in a Love recession

We were a lil worried when you started making minimum payments

Then you stopped paying your Love bill, which was not our intial arrangement

We tried to give you time to get your finances in line

But all you kept tellin' Love is you'd pay the bill in due time

So your Love I have come to take back

'Cause apparently your ass don't know how to act

I must let you know that your Love credit rate has decreased

And all that Love has shown you must now cease

I hope you have taken this as a lesson learned

Just in case in the future you are allowed another turn

To get back in good graces with the manufacturer of Love

And set up some payments that aren't so tough

Now say goodbye, because you abused Love's blessing

So I must leave your home with Love's repossession

Epiphany

The familiarity of this situation has controlled the regulation of my clarity

Once again my regrets have me set on the path of redemption

Or is it temptation that has my heart racing?

In my quest to see what's for me I have ignored what I adore

And for reasons unknown, the seeds I've sown Have brought me a harvest of unrest

So I must plow thru the lines in my mind To field a field that may yield the fruit of content

This has me spent in energy

But ironically my second wind just kicked in

And since this race isn't a sprint

I'll pick a pace so I won't easily relent, my victory...history

Check Mate

Since I'm a King it was my belief that I can move one space in any direction.

And since I'm King I thought I could do so without any sort of correction

But as I move across the board I see that there are many pieces that I've ignored

And the victory that I thought was assured only left me with heartache that I have to endure

Made too many risky moves with my Queen and she was taken away from me

And when life got rough I knelt in front of the Bishop to ask him to pray for me

He said, "Son, although you think you're the most important piece,it is with the other pieces that you succeed","So as you advance across the board, only relinquish the pieces that you can afford"

So like a Knight I mounted my horse and left Thinking how I could continue to humble myself

More importantly, how can they believe in my new strategy

When it's so many people, that are watching my moves, who are mad at me

As I stare at the sky from the roof of my Rook I reflect on the patience that it must have took

For people to understand the moves of the King

Who thought he knew it all, but didn't know anything

So as I stand here now with things unforeseen I'm advancing my Pawns to get back my Queen Although I did lose sight and I know you all can relate I just pray that I'm understood and that it's not too late

To get back my Queen, so we can both designateAnd take over the board to end the game in Check Mate